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My baby boy, I cant believe that your now in Kinagarden and wont be but 3 more months and your going to be 6 years old. Its taking a lot of strength for mommy to type my feeling out like this. Im holding back tears because I got to stay strong for you and sissy. I have missed so much of your lifes alredy.
I wish I could have been there to watch you walk across the stage, graduating pre-K. Oh how much wish to see your pictures you drew at school or how great you do at writing your name. I wish I could read you and Sissy books before bed like we use to do. I wish I could wake up in the mornings to you and sissy jumpinh on my bed to get up. I hate myself for not being good enough for all of you. Daddy morgan bubba sissy and you. I lost you because Mommy was sad and she reacted in her emotions the wrong way because my baby boy ,mommy was so selfish and scared so I left for a week. When I come back home there was nothing I could do to have your daddy forgive me. He was so heart broke that I was not able to fix it. He refused and still does for mommy to be in your life right now. I wont give up even though I feel like somtimes I wont ever be able to do this.
Brandon Jay Fike my son. You and sissy are all I have and I dont get to have yall anymore. I want to hold you son and sissy. Every time we get the chance to see each other. It kills me because I have to say goodbye and Mommy has no idea how long or when the time again we will have with each other.
Your growing so much baby! I love you son with all my heart and I pray to God he can bring us back together again. I need you both in my life but I have to have the necessities before I can have you staying with me. Forever my son and my big boy wgo I know has not stoped loving me. PLEASE dont stop and know Mommy is always always going to Love you and sissy. My goal for 2019 new year is to be further to sobriety that I have you and sissy getting visitations with me. 2019 the year I get our home for us. I cant loose my faith!!!
Love always
Your mommy
“Its been 3 years now fighting this battle to have you both back.”