A mother of two young children, lays on her heart as they are so far apart. Never in her life did she think this could be the pain that almost brought this mother to letting herself go forever.
This is a heartbreaking memory to dive into but it’s the truth of what a man and woman out with vengeance on a mother who was to young to understand.
Mother left in anger, deep sad emotions because she knew she had lost her husband’s love. His first wife was moved back to town single and he was saving a sink and toilet for her, his first wife. At this moment in the mothers life she was unaware of these things. It takes having to bring back these memories to set light on the things unseen when emotions have control of your mind.
He talked a lot of his ex wife, who she was dating, what new things she had, what his boss (brother in law to ex wife. ) had told him she said. The mother one day cred, as he was talking and said, “why do you think I want to hear about her and her life?” He stopped talking with the mother of his ex and then they become more distance.
Her drinking got bad and her arms got more sore. She would drink till her mind was not in reality, trying to drown the pain. She loved this man with all her heart. 20 years of age when she met her 30 year old man with Two kids from his first wife.
After there rocky first year of splits and fights, mother become pregnant with her Son.
All she heard at the day of labor was how his first wife refused to take the children due to it was not her week. Mother in labor anxiety and stress rolled all over her as she hurt in pain. She was knocked out for most of her labor, gave her epidural to early. She woke to time to push and she began the longest two hours of pushing.
Her stress and all the chaos around her was unfair but she said nothing. Her son was not wanting to come out due to his cord was wrapped around his neck.
Doctors are trying to stay calm as they call for another doctor. Mother screens get him out. They snip her once not enough, snip her twice and splat. Blood slung across the room because the cord had snapped on his way out. The cry, so sweet. Mommy can’t hold him, snipe is to weak. He rushed to the table to be sure he was doing ok.
Six months down the road the mother become pregnant with baby 2. After fight and talk of separation. Mother was not thrilled to be pregnant again. Husband said good I’ll keep you pregnant so you can’t drink again. Mother took his words to heart knowing the man he was. After getting married in the court room Husband said to Mother while walking out, Now I own you. Haha. Mother did not laugh for she was 6 months pregnant with her son and upset the court room wedding was unplanned and nobody witnessed the moment.
No being she was a new bride and was at this time believing he was in love with her, after sister was born which labor was a breeze. Mother was OK with her life having a home, she built her a playground for her son with mulch and all his toys, she asked husband to do it, for it would be good for there Son and for Mommy. He never made time for it, with his busy work life that he didn’t work for 2 weeks stright, making it where mother had to borrow money from her mother. Her mother already paid phone bill so she could reach her mom or if an emergency happen. For husband had the only phone.
Now I could keep going on with this same cycle that drove this husband and wife to fall part but how about we bring light to this story.
Before pregnant with son, husband who was just bf at time, he and mother were in the point of split up. Partying got harder and fighting got worse. Then on a weekend of blow, assist, lot of drinking mother felt sick. Took a test and positive was on the stick.
Both scared and unsure what to do. Ex wife got news and jelousy, anger and mean words said, her vengeance there began.
All of pregnancy she would talk about how Her and husband this and that. Mother smiled and never showed that she bothered her. She tell husband and he did not understand, he said I was silly. I know better now then I did then, she purposely made my life Hell.
Husband fed into her games and even make jokes of mother being young and laugh at his ex wife’s rood remarks. Mother sitting alone again. Her husband was not her husband, he was still in love with his first wife.
So mother after two kids and a sad life as a house wife, step mother, mother always going never slowing down. The one out of the family of 6 that was leaned on by all, even by the ex wife, her mother, sister, cousin, everyone needing mother. She broke down and just wanted out. She could not cover it with drinking, that led to fights. Husband had a secret he will never reveal. I know more now then I did then.
Mother felt ugly, fat, unloved, alone, she left him and he come to her mother’s in anger because she had wrote an old friend on Facebook who she did not cheat on him with, as he assumed. That day at her mother’s house, husband turned into evil and she could never look at him the same.
She was scared and began praying for the Lord to not let him take her. Her babies ran though her mind, life flashing before her eyes. He then stopped and stared seeing her fear, he had fear run all over him not for what he did but for his future if she was to go to a hospital, police, maybe a consular. He told her he would never do that again to her and she believed him, he stuck to his word. Never hurt her again, and never will he.
Thats all I wrote on that note. Silly how I tell a story but its a way to say a lil bit abiut the life of her marriage that threw her life away. Still to this day she struggles.
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